I Had a Bad Day..

I had a bad day,
I never thought I would,
I gotta go through,
I wish I could,
I wish it's just a lie,
I wanna hide,
I wanna cry,
I wanna run,
Is there any other choice?

I can run,
I can hide,
but the day won't end,
I wish I'm lost,
I wish I'm away,
I wish I wasn't here,
I wish I'm not me..

I had a bad day,
I'm stuck, I'm sad,
I think I'm strong,
but, I can't help it,
I can't lie,
I was unfortunate,
I wasn't lucky,
I'm falling,
I'm breaking,
oh,..

I'm just the same ol' person after all..
Having a bad day..

Pix

Posting this pic just as a reminder of one of those Happy days..
- taken on my birthday last year..

Bad Day

'A happy sad song. heart-tugging.' -Nas

Daniel Powter - Bad Day

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day

dum deee dumm dumm..

I've been neglecting my page for a VERY long time.. dun really have the passion to write, ah, well, I just dun feel like it.. So many occasions has took place in the last few weeks.. My mum's birthday, and Lied's birthday was yesterday, 17th April.. *Happy Birthday!*

Attended so many weddings, almost all of my Arau's friend got married this year, some just gave birth and some are still planning their wedding, some are just bumming around.. dat's ME!

Urghh.. come to think of it, its depressing - the need to work is killing me.. There's plenty of job, YES I cannot deny, but most of the job offers are of Customer Service and Sales.. and I'm not the kind of person who can stand the arrogant of the rich people. I've just read Afdlin Shauki's blog on toilet cleaning issues (brought up by one of the airline regarding of the storyline of one his movie), *urrghh* some people just got issues to deal with themselves..

How I missed my major in Uni - Broadcasting.. If i could get a chance to work with really good directors/producers, I would say I'd choose Yasmin Ahmad and Afdlin Shauki.. They're just simply amazing.. They have a very unique way of bringing out the true life of Malaysians and also situations which took place in a life of a person, which we never thought could really make a big hit at the movies - and win awards too! But, yeah.. despite the hard work and the truth that has been brought out thru the movies usually will bring the directors/producers issues that they never thought they will hav to go through. Pity our local scenes.. But, luckily they're tough strong independent people who kept on working and producing what they think is best for the people.

Enough bout the movies.. I need a job.. boo hoo... same old, same old.. call me choosy call me picky.. If the people at the workplace is killing you, I'm sure you'll leave too.. whatever it is.. I don't really care now..

For crying out loud.. help me to find a job!

**Help**

Please?

Anyone?



*poof*

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Standard 6 Reunion~!!

14 years.. took us that long to finally keep in touch.. Wonders of technology. You can find anybody,anywhere in the world. We found each other in friendster.. hehehe.. Some of us used to be in the same class from Standard One up to Standard Six! 6 Years!! *woww*

After a few attempts of gathering people of 6 Melati and changing our gathering venue, Ming-Yan our event organizer manage to gather Me, Ellisha, Sze Reen, Shah Faezal, Chee Hoe, Fariz Ezani, Wai Sern, Ah Nei and Lee Deon. Of course, as expected, some couldn't make it at the very last minute, but the reunion was full of laughter - reminiscing down the memory lane..

Date: 16th Feb. 2006
Venue : Cafe 7, SS15 - Subang Jaya

--> after 14 yrs, dis is how we look like now! ehehhehe






Standing L to R : Wai Sern, Ah Nei, Lee Deon,Chee Hoe, Sze Reen, Ellisha & Ming Yan.
Sitting L to R : Me, Shah Faezal and Fariz Ezani.

thumbs up people!! (;

can u see how happy we are?? :P

L to R : Wai Sern, Shaheeran, Shah Faezal, ME, Ming Yan and Edmund Liew.

Oh..this was taken at Starbucks Taipan - few days after CNY.. before Edmund went back to Australia..

'twas fun to meet everyone..
but, 'twas not an easy task to find everyone and to arrange a suitable place n time to meet up..

and, yeah, our most popular & wanted people couldn't make it..Siti Sarah & Salina..hehehe.. dari online sampai lepak, asyik2 tanya pasal derang jee.. please try to join us next time.. (;

It's getting late.. Oya & Bob - getting engage today - 18th February '06.. Congrats to both of you..
& I got lots of things to do..

*outta here*

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*yawwnnn*

Weather forecast :

it has been raining heavily these past few days in Subang.. And every time hujan, I got scared of the fiery, scary lightning and thunderstorm.. (mcm bebudak kecik!) hehehe..

*yawwnn* ngantuks nyaa... malas sungguh nak type.. i wanna sleep, but i got to attend a reunion later tonite.. tamau groggy.. reunion darjah enam pulak tu..satgi groggy sorang2, tatau orang borak apa pulak..

tu lah kan.. tak biasa bangun pagi2 sangat.. tadi before the sun shine, dah kuar rumah.. gotta learn to get use to it.. *yaawwnnn...*

jangan main hujan tau.. nanti demam.. ;p

i'll update sum other time..please refer to other tv stations for further details... (the newscaster is sleepy..and the good weather is stopping her from being active and talkative hehehe)

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Finally!

Last night, after never-ending effort, I managed to finish up reading Fools Die, by Mario Puzo.. It is an accomplishment for me, and also an opportunity for me to start reading The Fortunate Pilgrim :) Hence, I got lots of work to do and a book to read... and my nephew Adrian and his mommy and daddy is going away for a holiday! - much more freedom to do work anytime, anywhere! but, of course, I'm gonna miss him loads! He was away last weekend, came back late last nite and going away again till Wednesday... *boo hooo* Gotta get it started, sumwhere,sumhow!..


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Friendship

A Toast to Friendship

by William Johnson


Give me a friend that the world is mine
give me a comrade rarer than wine
Richer than gold is the smile of a friend
richer and lovelier aye to the end
Drink to the toast of a friendship that’s true
what’s gone we’ve enjoyed, we’ve the future to view.




True friends doesn't leave.. No matter how far you are, friendship can still reach you.. Do not betray what lies in the relationship, betrayal is a sign of death to the friendship.

Save it or leave it~

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'If' - a poem by Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too:
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream and not make dreams your master;
If you can think and not make thoughts your aim,
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same:
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build'em up with worn-out tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings,
And never breathe a word about your loss:
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings---nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much:
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man!

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Books..

Jeffrey Archer and Mario Puzo

Nas borrowed me his books to read.. First book was by Jeffery Archer(omnibus) -Not a Penny More Not a Penny Less & Shall We Tell the President.... Read it at every chance that I can get my hands on it.. and its really hard to stop! The storyline is good, and I just couldn't stop shaking my legs, nervous & impatient on knowing what's gonna happen next..

And now, I'm reading Fools Die by Mario Puzo.. I'm already reading three-quarter of the book, and I got another one by Mario Puzo waiting.. hehehehe.. Actually, before I started reading Fools Die, I was reading Man and Wife by Tony Parsons - some book I found in the cupboard in my sis's room.. It's a funny and good for light reading...but nothing adventourous..So, I stopped reading it and turn to Mario Puzo.. There were other books, dozens of 'em..but I can only read Danielle Steel and Sandra Brown.. Tried to read Nora Roberts books, but I just couldn't finish reading..not even one single book! hehehe..

Every time that I got the chance to read Fools Die, is usually before bedtime and in the evenings after I'm done with my research for the day.. not gonna do any work today, my body's aching..one of the symptoms of thyroid - must be.. And, my elder sis is in the kitchen..cooking lunch, so, I got all the time in the world to finish up the book today.. Hope I get to start reading The Fortunate Pilgrim-Mario Puzo by end of the day.. (;

Ohh..and I went to watch King Kong last night before it stops showing at the movies..hehehe..

Gotta go to the clinic for my monthly check up next week.. *bahhh* more meds to take.. );

*ciaoo!*

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after 14 years...

How time flies.. it has been 14 years after primary school that I last meet my ol' classmates.. Somehow, one of my ol' friend, Ming Yan invite some of us for mamak (Pelita SS15).. but, only me, Ellisha and MingYan herself came..

'twas really surprising to actually 'lepak' with them. They look the same, but much more mature, and they act like they're 26, which I don't! hehehe With my bunch of high school friends, we're still behaving and feeling that we're still in the early 20s..but, its different with the primary school friends..perhaps maybe because we hadn't keep it touch for sooo long, and lost the touch after awhile..

We were sharing 'hot' latest gossips bout our other friends, reminiscing our primary years.. Almost everyone's name popped out.. and 5 'wh' questions is a must..

After a short trip down to memory lane, I had to make my move.. I was glad that I get to meet them after sooo many years..and hope I get to meet others too!

Gotta get back to work.. back to the present..

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Coincidence

I was in KL yesterday, went to collect informative brochures (but there aren't any!! - poor all the tourists!) Anyways.. as I was driving back home, I came across a blue Mercedes..with a very familiar plate number..NAK10 hehehe.. and another incident is about the toll gate boy..a good looking guy! Recalling my fisrt incident when I was paying my toll, I was attracted to his name, Muhammad Vira..I was amazed by his name at first, when I get a glance to see his face, I was amazed for the 2nd time! hehehehe.. A good looking toll gate guy! He should be the Malaysian actor, his star will shine very bright and he could be very rich too!! hehehehe..enuff about my coincidence..I need to continue with my work.. Got lots of research to do!! *uwaaa!*

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*yeay Yeayy*

Hehehehe my youngest lil sis Aah is back for the holidays!! but too bad for her twin bro Aed, he got to know that his class was cancelled at the very last minute..and he didn't get to buy his bus ticket earlier.. but I'm sure he'll be fine there in Arau with his cousins.. (;

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*Girls-Day-Out*

Wow.. It's been soo long since I went out with Anum, just the two of us. Forgot how fun it is to hang out with her. (;

We went to Sg Wang, coz she wanted to get this new-funky-top (extra mini cardigan) hehehe. The first shop we went, she found what she wanted to buy, but we decided to take a tour to other shops there. We went up and down few times before she finally decided to get the one she found at the first shop we went in! *wahhhh* we were sooo tired and dat's why we gave up..

After tired of walking and searching (Oh! we ate a cup of yummy ice cream during our shopping adventure! hehehehe) we went to Teppanyaki.. Thanks Anum for dinner! 'twas a delicious one!

Next stop, we went to get my stuff n hers at a stall in front of the KFC..after placing our order, the guy asked us to come back later in an hour time.. *urggh!* dat long?? if the previous auntie was there, kejap jeee! but, we waited.. So, our trip continues to the nearby Secret Recipe.. After lepak2 and chit chatting, we went to collect our stuff..and head back home..

Oh boy.. 'twas a tiring trip..both of us couldn't walk properly, our feet hurts like crazy.. hehehe.. the after-effect of walking too much and the lack of knowledge of the confusing path in Sg Wang.. hehehe

All in all, I had fun and painful feet! hehehehe.. would do it again,tho.. (;

Tomorrow is Raya Haji.. Hope that Anum will find her lemang for tomorrow~!


Selamat Hari Raya Haji everyone..~!!

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A trip wif Leen's woohooo! car..

Yeayy! Finally, Leen pick me up! hehehe..

Leen just got her red Chevrolet Aveo.. very nice car.. it seems weird for
everyone 'coz Leen was driving! But on the other hand, in her red car, makes her look more sexy..hehehehe..

Enjoy driving around,Leen!

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worry no more...

Seriously, I've been worrying for nothing..

The casting session, wasn't really a casting after all..was more like an interview.. (; but I didn't try out for the clubbing-scene-casting coz I was told that they want me to dance to make the holographic images..ermmm or sumthing..I can't remember what he told me.. hehehe wasn't really interested in demonstrating sum dance move infront of some strangers...According to him, if I'm selected, I'll have a REALLY good portfolio for future references..only if i know how to dance lah~! I dun think I know any interesting cum sexy cum freestyle moves..but I'm really interested in becoming one of the ushers for the Sabah event.. work + holiday + jalan-jalan!! who wouldn't say yes? being paid to go for a holiday hehehe (;

I'm gonna be needing all the luck that I could wish for!

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*aiyohh..*

My boss wanted to see me yesterday during office hours, but he called in to cancel it..I was somehow glad that he couldn't make it, 'coz for our first meeting I wanna at least show him my first draft of my research, which I haven't finish re-arranging it.. *theee hehehe* Gotta do it soon! He rescheduled our meeting for tomorrow,Saturday.

But, first, today, I've got myself an appointment with an agency.. at first, I thought it's an interview.. but, the lady in-charge sent me a message last night, informing me that it's a casting session! *baahhh* I'm doomed! I don't really have pretty smart sassy clothes to wear later.. I'm currently online on my YM, asking my sis what to wear, and also waiting for Lied to reply.. *helpp*

Pastu everytime i've put on weight, there'll always people calling me to offer me jobs.. tsk tsk.. when I'm fit and confident, I'm stuck at home doing nothing.. hehehehe

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A tribute to Lied..

Anita Sarawak
-Akhirnya Kini Pasti


Ketika hati ku di lukai akibat cinta
Tak ku duga oh tanpa ku sedari
Menjelma dia...
Bersama manis bicara
Terasa bayu asmara
Bolehkah ku bercinta lagi sangsi berkata

Walau ku manis diarus curiga melangkah jua
Ingin ku melupai segala cerita lama
Semakin hari berlalu semakin cinta berpadu
Lembutnya kilauan sinar cahaya hatinya

Akhirnya kini pasti
Ku merasai cinta nan suci
Bahagia pabila ku bersama
Sungguh indahnya
Hadir dirinya suatu kurnia
Daku gembira... auw !

Semakin hari berlalu
Semakin cinta berpadu
Lembutnya kilauan sinar
Cahaya hatinya

Akhirnya kini pasti
Ku merasai cinta nan suci
Bahagia pabila ku bersama
Sungguh indahnya

Akhirnya kini pasti
Ku menemui cinta abadi
Akhir kini ku kembali jua alam asmara
Akhirnya

Outcome of Interview..

I went for the interview, was nervous in the morning, but, the interview turn out to be just fine.. Arrived in KL around 10am, searched for the office and then went for breakfast.. I was lucky Nas came along.. His presence calms me down *wink*

While I was chatting with Iza on Yahoo! Messenger, she told me 'bout the job description (the one that I went to this morning) , we gotta go around town to sell credit cards!! *urrghhh* I'm not gonna do that!

I'm lucky that Iza told me earlier but I'm kinda dissappointed 'coz I've went for the interview already! (it's kinda costly!) ;(

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Interview..

I have an interview to attend tomorrow morning in KL.. been preparing my stuff (ironing,typing,printing) for tomorrow for the past 2 hours.. I'm sooo tired, but still got a lil more to prepare.. hope I get to sleep early today..Gotta look fresh and confident tomorrow!

Wish me luck!!